Understanding

Well, it is Tuesday, today was my "spa day". I enjoyed it, there was really nothing to not enjoy. I had an exceptional day with a friend yesterday. It opened my eyes, really made me realize, that people that have not gone through the disintegration of a marriage really don't understand the feelings that go with it. As I talked with this relatively new friend yesterday - who has gone through this also - it was clear that she knew EXACTLY what I was feeling/had felt. She had felt very similarly, even though the circumstances were radically different. I guess what I am saying is that I have tried to "hide" all of that and not sought out people who might truly understand. I need to stop doing that. I need to talk about it, I need to find people who feel lonely for the same reasons. I am not unhappy being alone, but I think I might be more happy if I had more friends that shared similar experiences with me. I have been operating under the assumption that if I don't let anyone in, then no one can hurt me. Poor logic............I still hurt, but have been lonely too. Anyway, I am making a resolution to allow more people in my life. Maybe I am not "damaged goods" - it is entirely possible that people might like me for my warts..................interesting. Plus, I know there is water out there :) 'Til later!

Well, today was Monday and I did NOTHING. NOT A THING! Dishes are piled up in the kitchen, the laundry is overflowing, and the grass needs to be cut in all three yards. I read, took naps, watched a movie, and finally watered the flowers. I am bored now. Tomorrow I will get up, get dressed and get something accomplished. I am not sure I understand people who have days and days like this. I am a little stir crazy after one. Things I am thankful for? Cable TV, library books, pajamas, a hot shower, and video chats with Andrew. Till later.

Thursday is here! I am officially done with summer school, William Woods classes until Aug, and just need to get through the Apple Pie/Cupcake contest on Friday. Next week is "me" week. See, here's the deal. I am not interesting enough to do this - everything in my life is mundane. If I had a love life I could write about that. But, on the other hand, why would I want a love life. Joys? Sleeping all night without an hour span of awake in the middle, ice cream, a riding lawn mower, and Janet Evanovich books. Til next time.

Success

Well, this is a learning experience.........so today I learned. Adding the stupid playlist to this blog took way too much time, but I got it. These kind of things drive me crazy. I am a bulldog that way. Maybe I should look into that a bit more. Could be the source of other problems. Anyway, summer school is finished and I am on vacation. Sometime soon I am going to relax, difficult for me to do. I tend to feel guilty when I relax, where does that come from? Things I am thankful for? Beautiful weather, a landlady to fix things on the house, free time, and turning the daily alarm off! Till next time!

My First Blog!

Ok - I am definitely new to this. I read other's blogs and think.......I should do that. So here it is. What I will do with it, I have no idea. Maybe I can begin to build a sense of self and confidence again, something that has been missing for too long. Anyway, it's a start. Thanks Missy, for encouraging me.........................well, let's see how it goes :)