Understanding

Well, it is Tuesday, today was my "spa day". I enjoyed it, there was really nothing to not enjoy. I had an exceptional day with a friend yesterday. It opened my eyes, really made me realize, that people that have not gone through the disintegration of a marriage really don't understand the feelings that go with it. As I talked with this relatively new friend yesterday - who has gone through this also - it was clear that she knew EXACTLY what I was feeling/had felt. She had felt very similarly, even though the circumstances were radically different. I guess what I am saying is that I have tried to "hide" all of that and not sought out people who might truly understand. I need to stop doing that. I need to talk about it, I need to find people who feel lonely for the same reasons. I am not unhappy being alone, but I think I might be more happy if I had more friends that shared similar experiences with me. I have been operating under the assumption that if I don't let anyone in, then no one can hurt me. Poor logic............I still hurt, but have been lonely too. Anyway, I am making a resolution to allow more people in my life. Maybe I am not "damaged goods" - it is entirely possible that people might like me for my warts..................interesting. Plus, I know there is water out there :) 'Til later!