One Step Forward, Two Steps Back

Today was a downer - no getting around it. If I begin to feel like I MIGHT have it all under control, reality rears its ugly head. Every year I think, "Maybe I need a different job." This was one of those days. I work pretty hard - honestly I do - and yet the rewarding days are few and far between - more so each year. Whiner? Yes. Having a pity party? Yes. Immature? Probably. But looking at it from the standpoint of taking care of myself -- I don't know what to do differently. If I didn't put time, sweat, and tears into my job, then I would feel like I was a hypocrite asking my students or son to give 100%. I might be happier though - I find that ironic! Anyway, surely, SURELY tomorrow can't be another day like today. Joys? Singing. Monday at practice I got to that place where my voice is all warmed up and just appears to take on a life of its own. That doesn't happen every time anymore, but when it does I feel invincible! Andrew is loving basketball, and I had a potato with butter and salt for dinner. Sometimes that is all one can ask for. And...............yes it was real butter. I would rather eat nothing if I can't have real butter!