Well, here it is March and I haven't blogged since January. So much for my good intentions. I will start again. While time has passed, not much has changed. Andrew was successful in his basketball season - and is sporting a jacket to prove it. If he will allow me to take a picture I might add it later. That, it would appear, is the extent of the excitement here. I find myself extremely sluggish. I crawl into bed and watch the same movies over and over until I fall asleep. While I have so much going on in my life that I can't keep track of it, I am overcome with the feeling that there is a lot missing. I need to start with necklaces again - they gave me a goal and a purpose. I felt successful. I haven't made any lately because my printer isn't working. How sad is it that something so simple has kept me from doing something I really enjoyed? OK - a new chapter starts today.
This melancholy might come from my fixation on Pride and Prejudice and Bridget Jones movies this past month. I find myself pining for a "Mr. Darcy". No one has a fairy tale life, but I am a bit tired of being alone. Even the most annoying habits of another human might be better than my current sense of aloneness. I guess I should watch "It's A Wonderful Life" again......... Enough, enough, enough. ENOUGH!
The tax-woman brought good news my way, and so this year of trials, wake-up calls, and new beginnings is coming to a close. I have weathered the most difficult year in my life. One might say I am better for it - I know in my heart it is true. I am strong, independent, confident, and surrounded by people who love me. That gives me great comfort.
You know that John Lennon song "Beautiful Boy"? There is a line in there......."Life is what happens while you're busy making other plans." That's what this feels like. This isn't the life I signed up for, but it seems to be the life I got. That sounds like I am a spoiled brat, but really I am not. I just thought that by this time in my life, I would have it all figured out. Sadly, I have nothing figured out! Enough! This is not a pity party.
Here are the pictures of my Beautiful Boy!
Hopefully, I will have some blogs soon about new Spring designs for pendants. I am going to shop tonight, print tomorrow at Mom and Dad's, and maybe post tomorrow night. How is that for a fresh start? Have a great Saturday night with your best boy or girl. I will be with my boy - who now wants to go to the store for chocolate chips to make cookies tonight. Until later, Julie
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