WOW!

My great friend Tracey sending me out the door!  She was so patient and kind.  I put my makeup on wrong, forgot hairspray, couldn't finish sentences.........I was a mess!

This, my friends, is what fear looks like!  I took a big step on Friday and went on a date.  Yes!  A real date........and it was very, very nice.  Only time will tell if there is a 2nd, but the simple act of preparing for and going on this date is a cornerstone.  The world didn't end, I didn't explode in fright, he wasn't an axe murderer, and I appeared to keep his attention and add to interesting conversation.  To say the least, I am proud of myself.  Those of you that know me well have been so supportive - and I am so grateful!

Fear is a funny thing!  I have plenty of self confidence to do a lot of really difficult things. I think nothing of walking into a room full of strangers and striking up a conversation.  I enjoy singing in front of 500 friends and strangers.  I have no trouble articulating my thoughts and ideas in an intelligent way.  This date, however, had me shaking in my boots and almost unable to get out of the car.  I have allowed emotional fears to insulate me from experiencing these feelings and that MUST STOP.  I must change the way I look at this part of my life.  I also must tackle the physical insulation I have allowed to accumulate.  My thought process was that if I was physically unattractive (weight-wise) then no one would be interested and thus hurt me.  Totally flawed, but it has kept me "safe" for quite a while.  I am still on target with my New Year's resolution - A New Vision.

Certainly, there is plenty of my resolution that has nothing to do with relationships and dating, but this was a HUGE week, and, Just for Julie!