Happiness!

Hello Friends!  I hope everyone is having a fabulous spring.  I know I am!  Life is good! Really good!  Really, really good.............and it makes me happy. If you had told me 2 years ago that I would be in this place, I would have said, "Hell no, I will not, why would I want to do that?"  If you had told me a year ago I would be in this place, I would have said, "No, no, I don't want that."  If you had told me 6 months ago I would be in this place, I would have said, "No, there isn't anyone out there for me."  Today?  I'm simply smiling.  A LOT!

I have read a lot of books over the past 10 years about how to find happiness, and be grateful for the simple things.  Life gets complicated sometimes.  So, so complicated!  It is easy to lose track of what is important.  I have come back to the core of what I was looking for, happiness!  I am ridiculously happy right now, and I love it!  Honestly, I am beginning to think this has been God's plan all the time.  Remember when I wrote about losing my faith and being tired of waiting for my prayers to be answered?  I spent years waiting for my "real life" to begin.  Years!  All that time has led me to this place in my life, however.  It wasn't easy, and there were many tantrums and tears along the way, but I wouldn't be who I am now without that time.  I think that, along with my acceptance that God answers prayers in His own way and on His own timetable, has brought me here!  My original vision was that I needed to find what made me happy.  I have found friends, a hobby that I enjoy, a long-needed fitness overhaul, and a very special man, John. If you follow me on Facebook you already know this......and he is wonderful.

I have often heard people say that you have to go out and find your happiness.  I never believed that because I thought that if it was truly meant to be, then happiness would find you.  Now I see it is a combination of both.  Happiness cannot come through a closed door.  There must be at least a part of it open...........that's what I think I have done this year.  However small, I opened the door and took the risks needed for happiness to find me right now......and I am happy!

The school year is winding down and I can see summer on the horizon.  I enjoy summer as a time to focus on what needs to be done around the house, recharging my energy for school, relaxing, and enjoying the freedom that comes with no schedule.  My friend Dianne will be back in Northeast Missouri for the summer and I am really, really, really looking forward to lazy afternoons in her pool where no one can see us in bathing suits! :)  The necklace fund raiser went well - Coach Williams is happy with the outcome and so am I.  I will also have some time this summer to get all that organized and ready to go for the fall and holiday season.

Friends, I hope you feel as happy as I do!  I had truly forgotten how this feels!