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Sunday, July 29, 2012
Glass Overflowing!
Here is the first picture that John and I have together. It has been a long time coming. This photo was taken by Andrew with my phone, so the quality isn't the best, but looking at it makes me smile. I am truly blessed and I don't have to worry about my glass being half full - IT IS OVERFLOWING!
Thursday, July 26, 2012
Glass Half.................
Hello Friends! Summer is ending soon, and I can't even tell you where it went! I got my "official" school letter today announcing the back to school breakfast and faculty meetings...........that's the first sign. Andrew is off this weekend to his Florida grandparent's house, so that is always the second sign that summer vacation is over. School starts so early this year - Aug. 15! The past few years it just seems to get earlier and earlier. There was a time when I thought Aug 24 was too early, but now that looks like an ideal date! I've been at school several days in the past couple of weeks, and it looks like I am ready.......at least the classroom looks ready. Am I ready? Might be a different answer.
Most of you know that I am over-the-moon happy with the direction of my life right now. I have lost weight, I am in a relationship with ABSOLUTELY the right person for me, Andrew has adjusted and is happy,and there seems to be less stress in my life.........at least at this moment. I hope to be able to continue to lose weight once school starts again; it is too hard to diet when I am home in the summer! Everything has settled into a very comfortable routine. It has, again, given me the chance to step outside myself and look at my life and assess.
If you know me at all, you know I am a planner. There has never been a time in my life when I didn't think planning allowed me to handle life situations well. Planning is not easy, nor is it fool-proof, especially when dealing with non-planners - as was the case in my marriage. Now I'm not saying that everyone should be a planner.....heaven knows my planning often makes me miserable! Then come children - no one can plan anything with children! But generally, I have planned for almost every possible contingency in life. Recently, however, I have begun to think that I am doing it backward, or at least causing myself added stress by planning so much!
My philosophy has been - at least for the past 25 years - "Prepare for the Worst, Hope for the Best." I thought that would reduce disappointment in my life. As I began to think along those lines, I got pretty good at figuring out what the "worst" might be. I spent hours and hours worrying about how I would handle the "what-ifs." In fact, I spent much more time worrying about those "what-ifs" than living life in the present! How silly is that? I missed things in my life because I was busy worrying about things that might or might not happen! That is often called seeing "the glass half empty." John said this in a conversation and it struck me. I DO LOOK AT LIFE THAT WAY! So much so, that sometimes, when the best happens, I am not as joyful as I could be. I am simply grateful that the worst DIDN'T happen. There is an absolute difference between the emotions!
So, my new goal........an added goal..........to look at the glass as half full. This will be a difficult adjustment, I fear, because old habits die hard. I need to embrace the here and now. Not worry about what might happen in the future..........it will either happen or not. I intend to plan, and make wise life decisions, but try really hard to change my approach. I think I will be a happier person in the long run. Plus, everything in my life is AWESOME right now, so I don't have anything to worry about. :)
Until next time, Just Julie
Most of you know that I am over-the-moon happy with the direction of my life right now. I have lost weight, I am in a relationship with ABSOLUTELY the right person for me, Andrew has adjusted and is happy,and there seems to be less stress in my life.........at least at this moment. I hope to be able to continue to lose weight once school starts again; it is too hard to diet when I am home in the summer! Everything has settled into a very comfortable routine. It has, again, given me the chance to step outside myself and look at my life and assess.
If you know me at all, you know I am a planner. There has never been a time in my life when I didn't think planning allowed me to handle life situations well. Planning is not easy, nor is it fool-proof, especially when dealing with non-planners - as was the case in my marriage. Now I'm not saying that everyone should be a planner.....heaven knows my planning often makes me miserable! Then come children - no one can plan anything with children! But generally, I have planned for almost every possible contingency in life. Recently, however, I have begun to think that I am doing it backward, or at least causing myself added stress by planning so much!
My philosophy has been - at least for the past 25 years - "Prepare for the Worst, Hope for the Best." I thought that would reduce disappointment in my life. As I began to think along those lines, I got pretty good at figuring out what the "worst" might be. I spent hours and hours worrying about how I would handle the "what-ifs." In fact, I spent much more time worrying about those "what-ifs" than living life in the present! How silly is that? I missed things in my life because I was busy worrying about things that might or might not happen! That is often called seeing "the glass half empty." John said this in a conversation and it struck me. I DO LOOK AT LIFE THAT WAY! So much so, that sometimes, when the best happens, I am not as joyful as I could be. I am simply grateful that the worst DIDN'T happen. There is an absolute difference between the emotions!
So, my new goal........an added goal..........to look at the glass as half full. This will be a difficult adjustment, I fear, because old habits die hard. I need to embrace the here and now. Not worry about what might happen in the future..........it will either happen or not. I intend to plan, and make wise life decisions, but try really hard to change my approach. I think I will be a happier person in the long run. Plus, everything in my life is AWESOME right now, so I don't have anything to worry about. :)
Until next time, Just Julie
Sunday, July 8, 2012
Reflection
I wrote this blog to explain my desire for change in my life:
Blog Dated November 10, 2010: I'm a mom. It is my most important job and I have loved almost every minute of it. It has been Andrew and I on our own for 12 years and he is a good kid. I take pride in that. Of course, Ron deserves credit too, a lot of Ron is in Andrew. Anyway, I have put that first since the day he was born! All along, I kept thinking that I didn't have time to do anything else. That changed somewhat when I started working again when Andrew was 3, but that wasn't really for me - it was something I had to do to pay the bills. The first time I really did something for me - and me alone - was joining the Community Choir. I credit my parents for that because it was as large a commitment for them as it was for me. I then began to see that when I took time to do things for me, I became a better person. It gave me an outlet and an identity other than "Andrew's Mom", although that is still my favorite. My singing has become a much larger part of my life than I ever dreamed! Thanks to my friend Rich for that. From that came the courage to enroll in grad school, something I thought I would never do. Not only did I succeed, I enjoyed it! Thanks to my friend Dianne for that. Now I do other things that are JUST for me, and I love it! I am first and foremost Andrew's mom, but I am also JUST JULIE! Thanks to my brother Rob for the logo. Until next time, Julie
Now, this was my way of expressing myself and my desire for change, but it seemed to be something that everyone understood, and the support I gained spurred me on. I became a happier person and did more things that I wanted to do, not just the things that others wanted me to do, or that I perceived others wanted me to do. This became a springboard for me to really examine what made me happy in life.
Time moved on and I moved with it. I really worked on becoming who I wanted to be and that involved many changes. Learning to use the word "No" was one of them and learning that I wanted more people in my life was another. I had thought about that many times, but finally had the courage to join Match.com, after a disasterous start with eHarmony. I wasn't convinced that anything would come of it and, honestly, only had enough money for 3 months. One day in the 3rd month, a picture and profile came up that drew me in immediately.......and soon after that, I met John. Most of you know how happy I have been the past 2 months. To quote my sister, "If you keep this happiness stuff up I may have to..........throw up." I've told her to keep the puke pan at the ready, because I want to keep being this happy! I have found the road that I want to be on and don't intend on straying off this path anytime in the foreseeable future. Life is good! Life is really good! Life is great!
Here is a picture I took last week...........I can look at this picture and smile - this is the me I want to keep improving. I don't want to go back, only forward. Thanks for all your support and help! I have often referred to the Hillary Clinton quote, "It takes a village to raise a child." Well, it takes a village to rebuild a life, so THANKS GO OUT TO MY VILLAGE! Until next time - Julie
Wednesday, July 4, 2012
Summer, summer, summertime!
Hello Friends - When I was in junior high, we did an adaptation of the play You're A Good Man Charlie Brown. I played the part of Lucy - my first, and last, starring role in anything theatrical! Anyway, Snoopy sings the song Suppertime. The chorus goes, "Supper, supper, suppertime" and he sings it while he is dancing around. This is how I feel about summertime. It goes so quickly and it always seems I have so much on my to do list! Hard to believe that summer vacation is 5 weeks old!
My brother Rob and his family came to visit from Texas last week. They had been in St. Louis all week and came to Kirksville for a couple of days before heading back to Texas. They were pretty exhausted from traveling by the time they got here, so we had a pretty low-key visit. They all stayed at my house and it was cozy, but manageable. It went very well. It isn't often that all three siblings are in Mom and Dad's house at the same time, so these are special memories. Becca, Rob's daughter, will be 12 in August and is becoming such a beautiful young woman. Ben is a pretty funny kid, even though traveling is very difficult for him. He was fascinated by all the fans in my house. He would wander from room to room and turn each fan on and off. He would then make the same comment about each: "That's an awfully nice fan." He did this repeatedly throughout the 2 days he was here. He also has such good manners! If you asked him to do something he didn't want to do he would reply, "No mam." and walk away. Rob and Jenn are doing a fabulous job with both of them. Notice I am in none of the pictures...........I was in the kitchen fixing the food and when we were done with the meal, Tracy was in the kitchen cleaning up...........Oh well, they know what I look like!
The question comes up repeatedly: How is my love life? The answer: Good, very good, great, BIG SMILE! I can honestly say that this is the most unexpected life change! For years I thought I would never trust or open up to another person ever again, but that is not the case. It proves that when the right person comes along, you just know! Oh, and, NEVER SAY NEVER! John has been wonderfully kind to both Andrew and I. Recently we went to John's parents' house for a fish fry with his family. Andrew and I arrived before John, but felt comfortable enough to go in and start preparing the watermelon we had brought. We hadn't been there 5 minutes before I cut myself with the knife Shirley gave me to use. Now, this wasn't a small knife cut! This was cutting off the tip of my finger! I was able to move away and wrap it up with a paper towel so the watermelon could be saved, but the injury was worse than any cut I have had. Once I took the paper towel away and saw how much blood there was, I felt faint...........this is when John and his 2 daughters arrived! Nothing like a little drama! Luckily, there was a nurse there, Mary, and she was able to get the bleeding stopped and wrap it up. There was no need to go to the hospital since there was nothing to sew back on and we were able to stay there for the evening. Thank you goes out to Nurse Mary (I don't even know her last name) and the Henderson clan for helping me through this. I guess there is always a story with every event..........and I will never, ever be allowed to cut a watermelon without hearing about that night again! My finger is fine, growing back nicely, and even though I don't have feeling in it right now, the doctor feels sure I will eventually get those nerve endings back. Here is a picture of the fish Andrew caught later that evening.
This last picture is of the roses that John bought me later that weekend. I can't think of the last time I have had a dozen red roses from someone other than my mother or father and it was RIDICULOUS how happy these flowers made me. I feel young and silly again..........at the tender age of 47! Life is GOOD!
Until later friends - Just Julie
My brother Rob and his family came to visit from Texas last week. They had been in St. Louis all week and came to Kirksville for a couple of days before heading back to Texas. They were pretty exhausted from traveling by the time they got here, so we had a pretty low-key visit. They all stayed at my house and it was cozy, but manageable. It went very well. It isn't often that all three siblings are in Mom and Dad's house at the same time, so these are special memories. Becca, Rob's daughter, will be 12 in August and is becoming such a beautiful young woman. Ben is a pretty funny kid, even though traveling is very difficult for him. He was fascinated by all the fans in my house. He would wander from room to room and turn each fan on and off. He would then make the same comment about each: "That's an awfully nice fan." He did this repeatedly throughout the 2 days he was here. He also has such good manners! If you asked him to do something he didn't want to do he would reply, "No mam." and walk away. Rob and Jenn are doing a fabulous job with both of them. Notice I am in none of the pictures...........I was in the kitchen fixing the food and when we were done with the meal, Tracy was in the kitchen cleaning up...........Oh well, they know what I look like!
The question comes up repeatedly: How is my love life? The answer: Good, very good, great, BIG SMILE! I can honestly say that this is the most unexpected life change! For years I thought I would never trust or open up to another person ever again, but that is not the case. It proves that when the right person comes along, you just know! Oh, and, NEVER SAY NEVER! John has been wonderfully kind to both Andrew and I. Recently we went to John's parents' house for a fish fry with his family. Andrew and I arrived before John, but felt comfortable enough to go in and start preparing the watermelon we had brought. We hadn't been there 5 minutes before I cut myself with the knife Shirley gave me to use. Now, this wasn't a small knife cut! This was cutting off the tip of my finger! I was able to move away and wrap it up with a paper towel so the watermelon could be saved, but the injury was worse than any cut I have had. Once I took the paper towel away and saw how much blood there was, I felt faint...........this is when John and his 2 daughters arrived! Nothing like a little drama! Luckily, there was a nurse there, Mary, and she was able to get the bleeding stopped and wrap it up. There was no need to go to the hospital since there was nothing to sew back on and we were able to stay there for the evening. Thank you goes out to Nurse Mary (I don't even know her last name) and the Henderson clan for helping me through this. I guess there is always a story with every event..........and I will never, ever be allowed to cut a watermelon without hearing about that night again! My finger is fine, growing back nicely, and even though I don't have feeling in it right now, the doctor feels sure I will eventually get those nerve endings back. Here is a picture of the fish Andrew caught later that evening.
This last picture is of the roses that John bought me later that weekend. I can't think of the last time I have had a dozen red roses from someone other than my mother or father and it was RIDICULOUS how happy these flowers made me. I feel young and silly again..........at the tender age of 47! Life is GOOD!
Until later friends - Just Julie
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