Hello friends! It has been a LONG time since I have written a blog post. I have had a couple of people ask me why. The reason I give is that I haven't had time. I am busy, but that isn't the real reason. The reason is because I don't want to repeat myself when I say I am happy. And I am very, very happy. My next blog will evaluate 2012 - but preliminary indications say it will be a rave review. I have surpassed even my wildest dreams. I rarely let my guard down, but one thing I would do prior to this year is daydream when given the opportunity. In a lot of ways it really tortured me. Mostly this happened in bed before I fell asleep. I would close my eyes and imagine my life if I could have anything I wanted. Sometimes I would dream about having a big house or a nice car or a job that paid me much more money than I currently earn, but mostly I dreamed about having someone love me. One of my favorite movies is Bridget Jones Diary. Certainly, I love this movie because it is Colin Firth.............I LOVE Colin Firth, but also I relate to Bridget. Mark Darcy has a line, "I like you, just the way you are." That struck a chord with me the first time I saw the movie and made me cry almost every time I watched it. (and I have watched it a zillion times) That's what I wanted - someone to love me just the way I am. Never did I ever think at 48 years old I would find it! But I have! I am in love friends! Real love, the kind I have been looking for all my life! This is the way it is supposed to be. It is often said that you don't know what you have until you lose it. In my case, I didn't know what I didn't have until I found it! Saying this makes me feel a little guilty, like I am hurting people. That is not my intent at all, but I have realized that this is what I wanted!
Christmas this year has been a bit different. My finances led me to find a way to make some Christmas gifts this year. I bought some supplies from a soap and lotion suppler in Washington and made Candy Cane lotion, sugar scrub, and added Candy Cane lip balm. This was a raging success! Had I known, I would have bought more supplies and sold some - and based on comments, I could have sold a butt-load! I enjoyed making this and hope that no one thought I was cheap..........although in reality it was MUCH cheaper than buying small gifts and hostess gifts. I have had the thought of doing it for Valentine's Day and Easter with some different scents. I also found myself looking forward to Christmas in a way I haven't in years. There was something magical about the holiday this year......and I know what that magic was. I have a new outlook on life - and that has made the difference.
Merry Christmas friends! I hope your holiday was as wonderful as mine! My wish for all of you is that you can find the same happiness I have found. Now that I am in this place, I have no intention of leaving it!
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